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I GOT THE JOB !

Thank you Universe for catching me from a long terrifying fall. This is what this blog was about: Taking that Leap of Faith  I have recently found myself homeless, penniless and jobless -the dark trifecta.  Thanks to charity from my family and friends (again) , I have survived. I learned to let go of my fierce independence, try not to be superman, admit my vulnerability, and graciously accept help.

There were many moments when I would  find myself missing the girls, so I made it into a reminder to do 5 push ups  (because fitness). As sad as it makes me, I can allow myself to be sad and channel that energy into something else. 

I spent weeks trolling through the job finding websites and LinkedIn chasing anything that remotely looked like it could be something I am capable of doing like a parking ranger, factory worker, or administration assistant. Occasionally I would find an IT job that I might just be able to take a crack at and I metaphorically  blow off the dust from my IT resume. Each time I pick a job, it feels like online dating, I get a mild crush about the job description, so I tweak my cover letter, I tweak my resume and send in an application. Each one of these tweaks can take anything from five minutes to two hours (yeah those were the IT jobs).  Some days I can manage to send 5 applications, I write them down on my job journal, some days I can barely manage to send 3. It is exhausting having to emotionally reset for each application. 

And then weeks later, I would get the rejection letter. I cross it off my job journal, try and learn from the nicely worded feedback about why my application was unsuccessful. And then remind myself to keep sending more applications because we cannot wait weeks for a response that may never come. Responses were sometimes quick and sometimes slow, but if I haven't heard back in 4 weeks I  classify as lost. I also worry about bots, the robots that screen all the applications, who knows what they have been programmed to look for and which to reject?  I despair.

But then I have to force myself to be upbeat again, because I just found another interesting job as a DJ, I need to tweak my resume and cover letter again.  Lather. Rinse. Repeat.

Until I was contacted by a recruiter. All this time I have been chasing jobs, when the real trick was to wait for the job to find me.

My salvation does not come cheap, distance from my children was the price I have to pay. I pay it reluctantly, not grudgingly, for I am grateful. A chefing job was not what I was job searching for because, well I was already chefing as part time casual.  But oh do you see what is happening now? This was the journey I started a decade ago when I left my IT job to become a chef.  Except now I also have 2  more beautiful kids.

Over the next 3 days, i will be working as a chef, and then have Sunday off, before I start my new life in the mountains. It sounds crazy but I may need extra time to wrap my head around it all.